My training for the last year or so has been sort of non-training-ish. I've been running (and biking and even sometimes swimming), but without following any sort of training plan. And I haven't put in the training that I should for the races that I have done. I think there's a couple of reasons for this - for one thing, for me running and racing goes through cycles. I have periods where I feel very driven to train for specific goals. But I can't do that all the time. If I do, I end up getting obsessed with results. And feel crushed if I don't get my expected results, which leads to running being something that makes me feel bad about myself. Which is a little counterproductive.
The other reason for the non-training is because I have been trying to get pregnant for the past year. When we first started trying, I assumed that I would get pregnant right away. After all, I got pregnant with Sophie when we weren't trying and I was on the pill. One year, two chemical pregnancies and a miscarriage later, joke's on me. When I signed up for the Twin Cities Marathon last year, I assumed I would be pregnant and wouldn't end up running. So I half-assed the training and had a crappy race. When I signed up for the Wisconsin Marathon this spring - same thing. Except then, two months before the marathon, I was pregnant. I was still running and training for the marathon when the miscarriage started. In my head, I thought a miscarriage would be a one day event. In reality, between the spotting and what I consider "pre-mascarriage drama" and then the actual miscarriage, it was about three and a half weeks worth of suckiness. By the time the whole miscarriage thing was done, it was too late for any "real" training for the marathon. But I still ran and surprised myself with a half decent race.
For my own sanity, I have to give up thinking about getting pregnant (easier said than done). The desire to find something else to focus on has given me a hunger to throw myself into some solid training. I have my sights set on two fall marathons - the Women Rock Minnesota marathon in September and the Whistlestop Marathon in October. I think that if I put in a solid couple of months of training I can get a PR and go sub-4:30 at one of these races.
Last week, while I was resting my legs post-Grandma's (what is it about marathon recovery that makes you think about more marathons?), I made a little training plan to take me from now until September 1st (the Women Rock marathon). I tried to keep it flexible to take into account summer schedule craziness. I am excited to start checking off workouts. After taking it pretty easy during the week last week, I had a couple of good workouts this weekend - a five mile run yesterday and a 40 mile bike today. Tomorrow? I've got speedwork on the calendar. Now I've just got to try to remember where the track is . . .