Friday, February 26, 2010

I Wish . . .

it was a little bit easier to get my runs in.

Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and I love, LOVE, L.O.V.E. being a mom to my wonderful, adorable daughter. But sometimes it is just so much juggling and work to do a simple little thing like run 17 miles. Am I selfish for not wanting to give up running now that I have a family? But I don't think my husband wants to be married to the person I would be if I didn't run. And I don't want Sophie to have the kind of mom I would be if I didn't run.

So that leaves me with the juggling. And the begging my mom to drive an hour up here to visit with her favorite daughter and granddaughter (oh and by the way can you watch Sophie for a few hours while I run, thanks so much!).

I look back at the days before I was married and before Sophie and think damn, I should have run a million miles back then, I had nothing but time.

Pending proper alignment of the stars, I'll be getting my 17 miler in tomorrow morning. Good luck to all of you who are racing this weekend - looking forward to the race reports for some runspiration!

16 comments:

Julie said...

Hi Heather,
Don't be so hard on yourself..it is very challenging juggling everything and wanting to run!! Just remember that running makes you happy and you are a better person for it! It sounds like you have a great support system helping you out:) I hope that you have a great 17 miler tomorrow!! Good luck and have a fantastic weekend:)

DRog said...

Agreed the juggling of schedules is a lot...but I am like you, much happier when I am running...-D

Katie A. said...

I'm with Julie - don't be too hard on yourself!
I don't have kids yet and it's a huge balance between work, social life, the house, laundry, grocery shopping....well, you name it! You are awesome for keeping it all together - pat yourself on the back!
So the hubbs doesn't always want to watch Sophie? At least you got your mamma!
Have a wonderful weekend and good luck!

Running Through Life said...

Don't fret too much about this. The older kids get, the easier it is for this type of thing. It sounds as you are doing a great job, just don't let it get to you.

aron said...

i always wonder how you moms do it! i definitely appreciate my time right now, but am very observant of all the people i know who are athletes with kids. we just joined that running/tri team and its interesting to watch how everyone gets it done, but they do! seeing that and reading blogs like yours gives me hope that it can be done when i do decide someday to have kids :) i think you're amazing!

Jeri said...

I feel for you. I can't imagine juggling a family and trying to fit in running on top of it. Hopefully it'll be easier for me to be doing this now and adding other life obligations on top of it. who knows though.

Good luck on your 17. I'll be doing 16 from afar. Sounds like the weather shouldn't be too bad. (Spring?? :p)

Jill said...

I trained for my first marathon when my twins were two and my daughter 6...I remember thinking the exact same things. Even now when they are "big", I still find myself squishing in a run around something! You are a better person for running and your husband and daughter wouldn't want you any other way!!! :)

MCM Mama said...

Hope your run goes well tomorrow! I don't know how moms who work or moms who have their kids home all the time do it. I'd never be able to fit in all the miles if I didn't have preschool and grade school. Kudos to you for squishing it in.

kelley said...

I haven't read a single comment, I was in such a rush to chime in...

I'm 29. I discovered running not yet 3 yrs ago. I'm training for my third marathon.

These days, all I can think about is family planning. And all I can think about is how a baby might ruin my running dreams (the only dreams I've ever really had in my adult life).

So, I have nothing to add, nothing to say...just that I am a woman who was late to discover her passion (running) at the same time the world expects me to start a family.

I know your situation is different; you are already blessed as a mom. But this just resonates in such a way with me.

Anyway, I admire you very much; I admire how you live your life.

Sarah said...

It IS hard to juggle. And sometimes I do feel guilty leaving the kids for a whole morning to be out running. But you know what...running makes me a better and happier person and mom. And I am setting a great example to my kids...that is important to have goals and dreams, that is important to be healthy and that is important to work hard for what you want.

joyRuN said...

I hear you.

I can empathize 1000%.

Fortunately, my family understands & allow me that time to myself. But often I'm squeezing it in when I can, laundry/dishes/cleaning be damned.

running mom said...

Yes! As you can see from all your other comments you are not alone!

I'm a runner who has given up the streets for a treadmill in the playroom. My runs are often interrupted by a toddler needing her booty wiped or the baby pulling up on something and getting stuck.

Black Knight said...

Run run run

X-Country2 said...

It's so hard, and I have so much admiration for those (like you) who do it all. Good luck!

Marlene said...

I admire you Moms who manage to juggle everything! You make me realize that I need to appreciate and take advantage of the freedom I have now.

M2Marathon said...

Oh girl, I TOTALLY know what you mean with the juggling. My mom drove 8 hours to visit, primarily so hubs and I could get a weekend "off" and squeeze the long run in. But, tough as it may be sometimes, I continue to juggle for the same reasosn as you: I am a better me with the running, and the juggling is worth it!